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My life tends to revolve around my dreams. Not the pretty pictures I see in my sleep, but visions that contradict my real life. I like to go into my head, and that's why my most favorite place is my room, where I can be alone, without any faces or voices to pull me back into reality. I'd love to get on a train and go to a random place hours and miles away. Somewhere where no one knows me, and not a single pair of eyes can place me. There, I can be the person I want to be, and not the person I truly am. A great writer, although I can't remember who, said "Mind transmits matter," and that's what I like to live my life by. I am always afraid that I am not smart enough, and I probably worry for the right reasons. Often I feel inclined to put away things that don't interest me, such as spanish and chemistry, and instead do what I want to do. I know there are things I am passionate about, and when it comes to them I'll spend all night and all day working. However, my tendancy to ignore the other things will bite me in the butt sooner than I think, and I am scared I won't be ready to fight back. I always imagine how my life will be in years to come, forgeting to live in the present. Although I really don't mind, because the present isn't much fun. I hate seeing the same faces in school, and always being surrounded by the same ridiculous conversations. I feel stupid when I'm in school, or around anyone my age, because I am forced to be part of that generation. I love to be around older people, ones that can teach me. I don't like learning in a classroom and I would much rather learn without being consious of it. I am fascinated with New York, and have been for the most part of my life. I am drawn to many things I cannot find an explanation for, no matter how long I spend being my own pshyciatrist. New York is one of them. My incredible love and respect for Jennifer Aniston is another. Small things catch my attention and touch my heart, tiny details, something as simple as a heart scribbled with a sharpie on an old tree. When I grow up and start a family, I want to have 3 daughters. I'd like to name them Alana, Charlotte, and Mona. I don't worry too much about things like grades, and if it weren't for the pressure of getting into a good college, I'd probably have all B's. I await the future with excitement and anticipation, fully believing that although there will be problems and I will get scared and lost, I'll always find my way back, and I'll be just fine, as long as I stay who I am.
 
 

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